Is how much time I have left to study. I think I'm screwed. The chapter on Potential Energy is killing me and I have barely even studied the new material yet. How the hell did I find time to prepare last year?? I'm also very irritable, cranky, annoyed and an ecetera of bad emotions right now.

I dooooo not want to write my 5 page paper on resistance movements in the X-Men, and I do noooot want to read Dune, and I do not want to study for Physics. I do want to troll the web to investigate paranormal phenomenomnomnom, I do want to take a nap, and I do want to play Pokemon and watch TV. And I do want to play Neopets till my brain explodes.

Working so close to home has its benefits, like being able to come home during lunch breaks. Even though I have a 4 minute drive here and one back, its great being able to unwind for 22 minutes in the comfort of my own home. Now I just wish that I could stop being such a spazz at work. I never use to be like that, but I’ve become so absent minded that I don’t really know what’s going on. Sometimes I think I over think things too much so when someone tells me to do something simple, I interpret it in like 20 different ways and then I stand around like an idiot trying to figure out what the hell they actually wanted. I think this could also be considered “lack of common sense.”

For the last few days I've been upset. Some people at my new Starbucks are jerks and I have a lot of trouble not letting the little things bother me. I know that I should be an adult and not be so sensitive, but sometimes I think I'm not cut out for the real world.

Why? This morning I had my rough draft all written up for English class, and because I have trouble using my USB stick at the school, I sent it to my email to print it out. Because I'm stupid, I didn't double check the file and ended up sending the wrong one, and thus, no paper. Since I didn't have a rough draft I wasn't able to attend English class, and I wasn't able to get credit for attending today. As far as I know, I've only missed 2 classes and was late 45 minutes for one class. If she didn't count me absent for the day that I missed half of the class, I should have only missed 3 classes including today. If she did, I've missed 4 and my grade is going to be docked by one full letter. I sent her an email to ask her how many absences she has me down for.

I am freaking scared, and it's just English 101....

I have to do math now.

Edit: 4:37 PM

She replied to my email, and I've only missed three classes including today! I feel so much better now.

Hmmm...This entry is really hard to read. LOL. Yay!

Nnnyyyyyyyy, I’ve barely slept at all these last couple of days and it is driving me crazy. I haven’t been eating very much either and if I move my head too fast it still hurts like hell.

Sleeping wasn’t just difficult because I was sick, I also couldn’t stop worrying about our bills, paying tuition in the future, and a bunch of other stuff. Once I start worrying I can’t stop, and then I start to worry about things that I shouldn’t even be worrying about. It is a vicious evil cycle. I just wish that I could sleep, but I can’t and that makes me a saaaad panda. So I ended up watching the Simpson and Dragonball Z and getting all giggly and weird.

I really miss my boyfriend and I wish he was here but I guess it’s good he’s not because I might have kept him up for two nights in a row. Then I would have felt really guilty. But who knows, maybe if he was here, I would be able to sleep better.

I’m pretty sure that I would have been awake though because I think my kidney infection is back because my right side is hurts just like it did in the spring after my car accident. I don’t have an insurance card to see a doctor or anything so I’m doing my best not to let it develop too much. I had to go to Wal-Mart to get a hot water bottle and some over the counter medication to reduce the symptoms, and I’ve been taking plenty of Aleve.

The problem is that last time (and this time if I’m right about the kidney infection) the normal symptoms are so mild I can’t even tell there is something wrong with me until the infection becomes so strong that it begins to make my kidney hurt. And then I get a fever and become all bitchy.

Since it was about 3 and I hadn’t fallen asleep yet, I knew I wouldn’t be able to get up in time for my Philosophy class, and read that f-ing Bhagawhatever book, which sadly to say is the hardest, stupidest, and most boring book I’ve ever read. The teacher compared it to reading Dostoyevsky.

Yeah I don’t think so.

I like difficult books, but I swear the Bhagavadgita went too far, it was putting me to sleep.

Dostoyevsky wasn’t as hard as Kafka (which was boring by the way), or as difficult as Machiavelli’s The Prince (which was depressing because I know I’ll never rule my own country and no I didn’t finish the book.)

But how was I supposed to concentrate on a horrible book like the Bhagavadgita when Sex and The City was on? What we read was only a small section of a book that is much much larger. What we read was long enough. It took me an three hours to read 20 pages and write two summaries, so I had to make myself some damn iced cappuccino just so I could stay awake reading till 6 in the morning.

Then I left for school early this morning to print out my summaries, but I left just in time for the morning rush hour so I didn’t get here until about 8:20, which is the time I would have gotten here if I left at 8, which is annoying because I don’t know how that could be possible.

So anyways I get to Harper to print off my work and I couldn’t figure out how to do it. It didn’t matter anyways because I messed up saving my summary somewhere so I had half of another summary instead. Being as awesome as I am, I knew I could rewrite it in about 10 minutes so I decided I would have to email it again, just 10 minutes after class.

I get to class and it turns out that we are reviewing the entire book now, which is fine because I did read it. The teacher asks us if we have any questions about the book, but some girl asks if the essay exam has to be written in standard 5 paragraph essay form and for some reason I find this unbelievably funny. I’m laughing behind my cappuccino, and the teacher asks “Why are some people smirking about this?”

So was it just me who though it was a stupid question?

Anyways, you always get someone who asks these types of questions. Of course his answer was what I assumed it would be, the whole “write as much as you need to get your point across,” which is what he said, but he cleverly answered it by talking about going to 7-11 at 2:30 in the morning to buy condoms because Walgreens was closed.

Which I don’t think was true. Walgreens is not closed at 2:30 in the morning lol.

As amusing as it was in my “haha I haven’t had any sleep, so I think everything is incredibly funny even if it is mentally disturbing,” state of mind, it made me really uncomfortable to talk to him about handing in the rest of my summaries.

Even though I’m all grown up now (lol) and it shouldn’t bother me, I guess I sort of thought it was an inappropriate or creepy thing to be talking about (yeah, it was mostly creepy, he really got into it) Since I am a Super Saiyan (this morning at least), I push the creepiness out of my mind and ask him about the summaries.

He says "Don’t bother turning them in at this point."

KAAAAA MEEEEEH HAAAA MEEEEEEEEEH HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

I've been a spazz all morning too, but I know I did well on my psychology test, which he made into a quiz instead, which then turned out to be a group quiz.

My life is so dramatic I should see about getting my own OC type show, or look into buying some lighter fluid.

Sooooooooooooooo... yeah. I'm slighty a teeny tiny bit angry, sad, depressed, annoyed, and paranoid. To top it off, tonight is my first night of work. I really hope the people there speak english.

I don't feel good. People suck, but I still love the world for it is filled with kitty cats.

The End.