I'm in such an escapist mood right now. I want to disappear. Send me to Silent Hill with a baseball bat, a letter from somebody I though was dead, and a mission. Send me to Hogwarts with an owl, a wand, and a spell book. Or for the love of God at least put something decent on the damn TV for me to watch as I wallow in pity and attempt to do things that are important.

That last one isn't too much to ask for is it?

I'm desperate for some sort of diversion, and in a time like this, diversions are easy to find everywhere but because of certain circumstances, I cannot enjoy them at all. I was looking forward to finishing this week's tests so I could spend some time afterward trying to recover from everything and do something that makes "me" happy. Maybe start a new book, or start watching a new anime. I have 10 different animes on my computer and on DVD's that I've downloaded but have never had the time to watch.

Well, the sucky but nice thing is that my Arabic test has been moved to next Tuesday, which gives me a week to study instead of only two more days. I honestly need all this extra time to study, but I was hoping that I would be able to start relaxing a little Thursday afternoon. Ah well. I kind of invited myself to a study group Thursday afternoon with some of the girls in my Arabic class. I really don't like to do these sorts of things, but I think that this is the only way that I will be able get some good tutoring.

I don't know if it's just me or if this entry for some reason is really depressing. Maybe it's the atmosphere of the room I'm in right now. I think I'm going to go home and blast some really loud happy music (if I have any), and turn on all the lights, and put all my stuffed animals on the floor and do a little study ritual. If needed, I will not object to sacrificing some chocolate pudding for good grades.

*To God* Me - If you want me to eat this pudding for you, give me absolutely no sign.
*Waits, nothing happens* Me - Buries head face first into bowl of pudding.

*headdesk* I don't even have any chocolate pudding, what the hell?

Update: 3:42

I have escaped to the world of the Care Bears. Seriously, I'm watching Care Bear movies on youtube and I cannot stop laughing, they're so horrible.

Check out this clip around 2:40...

DAAARK HEEEEAAAART

You see how that bad guy is a redhead. This just proves that ginger kids are the devil.

What the hell? There are kids playing outside by the street and near the lake and some idiot in a sports car comes flying through here. I hate it when people who don't actually live around here drive through our street so they can avoid having to stop at the stop lights. They usually drive through here as fast as possible completely forgetting the fact that this is a residential area where childern are at play. Idiot.